After cutting her ex-husband’s tattooed name off her body with a knife, the pop star and member of Spice Girls has revealed she once attempted suicide in 2014 to escape her marriage to Stephen Belafonte.
Mel B made this revelation and more in her upcoming memoir titled ‘Brutally Honest’ which she shared excerpts with The Sun.
In the memoir, she writes that the suicide attempt happened as she took nearly 200 aspirin pills on December 11, 2014, while she was in the midst of shooting the live shows for The X Factor in the U.K.
As each pill goes into my mouth, I ask myself: ‘Are you sure?’ And I take another one. Ten, 20, 50, 100. ‘Are you sure?’ One hundred and 20. ‘Are you sure?’ 150. Are you sure?’
Behind the glitter of fame, I felt emotionally battered, estranged from my family. I felt ugly and detested by the very man who once promised to love and protect me, my husband and manager Stephen.
When she got to the 200th pill, however, she stopped saying
I knew I didn’t want to go anywhere. … Suicide was not the answer. I had to make my life count. I had to get to a hospital. I had to get those pills out of my stomach before anything happened.
The Spice Girl and Stephen are now officially divorced.